When will H's indecision end?

[ValerieA]

H got home several hours ago. No R talks when he got here either but I believe that's because the kids were around. I just greeted him home with a friendly smile and hello. H has hugged and kissed me several times over the past few hours. He initiated all of it. I wasn't sure how to feel about all that, but I matched his intensity. H would talk to me and act as if everything was fine and dandy. I was fine with that.

I put the kids to bed around 8:30pm then go into the living room. H grabs my hand and leads me to the bedroom. (A little background here: In the past, whenever we got into an argument, H would always initiate sex. Why? I don't know.) Just as I thought, he initiates it.....Ellie, I know what your thinking! "Jump his bones! He wants you!".....but I stopped him and said not now. H looked at me like he was shocked. Hey, I have to admit that I was pretty shocked myself! I can't remember the last time that I wasn't in the mood! H said, "What?!...You don't want me anymore?" I told him that I do want him. I always want him, but I couldn't help but feel like he was trying to do a "quick fix". H said he was sorry, that wasn't his intention (hard to believe though when I look at the past). He said he just wanted to make me feel good. We just talked a little then his co-worker called and said he needed help with a service call he was working on in Sacramento. H tried talking him through it, but the guy just wasn't getting it I guess. So H is in Sac right now and will be home in about an hour and a half or so.

I feel like asking H if he's staying or going (especially after last night's convo), but I know that's just more pressure he doesn't need. Things are pleasant right now. I like it this way. I'm just not sure how long it will remain like this.

As always, thanks for listening.