When will H's indecision end?

[ValerieA]

Thanks for the understanding and support.

Sherry, you're so right about this being very draining. I'm so ready to move on, but H won't let me. Again, you're right about him needing to come to terms with what he's done. I feel like he wants or thinks he deserves to be hurt worse compared to how I was hurt by the A. Maybe I should give him a good 2x4 whack. Will that help? Just kidding!

D, I'm trying to stick to my guns, too, even though it's hard. Trying to hang tough!

It's just after 4pm here. H isn't home yet but should be soon. I went to out to lunch with my parents, my stepdad's parents, and the kids. We had a nice time. When getting in my truck after we ate, my cell begins ringing and I notice 3 missed calls. I answer it and it's H in a panic. He said he's been calling me and everyone else for the past hour and a half looking for me. He was scared because he couldn't get a hold of anyone and didn't know what was going on. After telling him we were all ok and having lunch, he calmed down. He told me he was finishing up work and would be home by early evening. I said ok, I'd see him then. When I got home, there were 5 messages from him when he was going crazy looking for me.

I know he's going to want another R talk when he gets here. I'm not really in the mood for another one, but I will listen to him. From our last convo last night, I feel like he's going to tell me he wants to stay together, AGAIN, but in a few more days, he'll have uncertainties, AGAIN. Either way, I'll do my best to appear "chipper".

Thanks for listening.