Thanks for the affirmation Scott! That was what I was leaning towards too but wasn't sure if it was the right choice.
I feel that I am still getting over some major trust issues, but I think that is understandable. Besides time I don't know what else I can do to get past my broken trust.
I just question and evaluate H's actions. Maybe it is normal to evaluate your S's actions in a M. Maybe I am just constantly taking the temperature of the M in a subtle way. At any rate I wonder who is calling him, who/what he is saying over IM, email, etc. Is this normal?
I don't want to bring up my insecurities with him since things have been going so well. Plus he wants to just move on. I feel like bringing everything up again would be like pouring salt in his wounds and reminding him that I don't fully forgive him (yet) for what he has done. I take blame for my part of what went wrong in the M but I didn't look outside the M in anyway to break that trust. At the moment, H has given me no reason to not trust him. I guess this is an internal struggle that I am having with myself. I don't want to be shell shocked again but I don't want to be suspicious either.
