Things are starting to really improve. H is really paying attention to me and seems to be enjoying himself. He cuddles with me and I feel that our SL has really improved. I think that he is liking the extra attention that he is getting. He will walk around with his shirt off and tell me that it is for me. He cuddles and doesn't get so angry with me. It is amazing but like I have said in my past posts I am afraid to let down my guard because I don't want to be blind sided again just as he doesn't want to let down his because he is afraid I will slip back into an old pattern.
As for possible OW. He stopped deleting calls on his phone and has not talked to her. Also I had let my mind run wild in previous posts because he now has also canceled his trip. He thinks that the money is better served going towards us. The most encouraging thing is that he is talking about us building a house up on some property. (This is what we always wanted to do before the bomb). This is good news. It is the future that includes me!!
I am feeling optimistic but also a little nervous. Still there are no ILU's. On Easter I got him a bag of chocolates and a light hearted card. He was afraid that it was going to be all lovey dovey and didn't want to open it. He was relieved when it was just a fun card. He of course did not get me anything. Why was he so afraid? Because he was feeling pressured? I have no idea. Later he said thanks for trying and gave me a good hug. Is this a good thing? I know this takes time but things "seem" to be going well.
I am trying to come up with some more fun or spicy ideas to keep things a little new and different. I am going to pick up some new slinky sleep attire, try sending a text message, and am trying to think of other ideas?????
I would love to hear any advice from people who have done something simple like this and got a great response from your H.....or vice versa. I am not very creative and kinda want to blow his socks off-just once.
