Thank you for all of the words of advice. I am hoping that I will just wake up from this whole nightmare to having my H say that he has suffered from some form of temporary insanity. LOL. But I know that is not going to happen.
I have taken stock in what I have done and the progress that we have made, which has been considerable. H gives me mixed messages and I know it is because he is confused. He is afraid that we will digress. It bugs him that I am trying so hard and it bugs him that I touch him all the time. He says he likes it but doesn't know how to react to it yet. Says he feels it is forced and that he wants it to be a natural progression. That sometimes he just needs his space. I told him that I understood and just to tell me when he needs his space. I also said that the changes I have made have resulted in me being a happier person and overflows to him and being a good wife and tapping into a side of me that I hadn't explored (LD/HD).
It sounds like you have come a long way from where you started. I guess it is comforting to hear from somebody who has "been there done that". I feel as though I am walking a tightrope as far as not to go too far one way or another. Being loving but distant, distant but not self absorbed or selfish, affectionate but not too touchy feely, helpful but not desperate. He feels I am acting this way out of desperation. I just told him that I needed a swift quick in the ass and I was sorry for not having seen things before they got to this point. Do you have any suggestions on how to handle this? I think you have some valuable lessons learned that could help.
