Right folks, another installment!

Today H and dd's were supposed to be here at 11am but he was late again so it ended up being 1.30pm instead. I felt a bit bugged before he turned up but spent some time dissipating my frustration by doing affirmation exercises.

He walked through the door saying that dd2 had a upset stomach was all sick till 3am last night so he slept in late ad hence that was why he was late. I thanked God that my affirmations worked and I hadn't bugged him for something which wasn't his fault.

Then he gave me a present! (First present since we starting dating last December) - I know you're gonna laugh, but it's Shrek 2 on DVD.
(I LOVE Shrek, especially the talking Donkey!! ).
He said it was my Easter present instead of chocolate.
I thanked him and hugged him.

DD1 gave me this lovely card she made for me and DD3 gave me a picture she'd drawn.

I made drinks for dd's and coffee for me and and H and we put the DVD on and watched that.
Me and H had to sit on the floor because I've only got 1 sofa and our 4 daughter's took up the whole sofa
He had his arm round me the whole time the film was on.

All of us laughed ourselves silly over it, it's really funny.

Then I gave the girls their Easter Chocolate and tried to tell DD2 to save it for later because of her stomach but she wouldn't listen to me and had some anyway.

I gave H 2 boxes of chocolates and a vegetarian cookery book (meals in 30 minutes or less - great for a bloke!) - he really liked it and said thank you.

The girls are learning Spanish as part of their home ed and DD4 is also learning French (she can speak some French already and she's only 2) through the Muzzy foreign language course for kids so I put on this Spanish vocabulary builder DVD for them to practise. H is learning Spanish too so he joined in!

He commented on my dress being nice (Champagne coloured with one of those lace-up fronts and the laces go right down to hip level, difficult to describe, a bit Celtic, maybe).

Anyway, he was hugging me and kissing me every time kids were out of sight and brushing his hands passed me by 'accident' and of course we ended up ML.

Now, here's the amazing bit. We're half way through the ML and he suddenly says
'I love you.'
ILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG he hasn't said that in 3 years!!!!!!!!!!!!
I never thought he'd ever say it again.
I kinda freaked out and said ILY back about 4 or 5 times, LOL. That's the first time I've told him in ages too.
I am so happy, this is different, if he's saying ILY this is permanent.

There were these cups of tea by the bed that we'd left, so he handed me mine afterwards and I said
'Hey let's just get off and drink tea, what a life!'
He laughed at me.

Then we had to get up because dd's were playing in the garden and we had to go and see to them.

Then we spent the afternoon chatting and the kids were playing and splashing water over each other and then I cooked pizza and chips for everyone's dinner and while I was cooking, there was a tricky point.

H said he wanted the kids to see my mother again. I froze. I was standing by the oven and I froze.
He said don't look worried, you don't have to see her, and I don't, I just want the kids to see her.

So we got into this really tense conversation about what a nut case my mother is and he said not to look so scared because he wasn't forcing me to have an R with her.

I went into some of the things she has done and he agreed that they were terrible. So far he has only spoke to her on the phone.
She, like me, thinks she will ever have an R with me again.
No loss there. I told H I am not going to her funeral, I shall break open the champagne.
He said he understood.
The up shot of it is, I don't agree with him re-institgating contact but I will not blame him. I told him if he was going to let the girls see her, then I wasn't going to as well and that he had to supervise the contact at all times, i.e, no leaving her alone with them.
He agreed.

I was a bit stressed out, so we hugged. I asked him why had he not mentioned the phone contact before - he said we weren't together when it happened.

This pleased me in a way, 'we weren't together then' because he's saying now we ARE together. I felt happier and we sat down together to eat our meal.

He says he will go with me for the evening to my friend's house on Thursday.

What do you reckon? Good? It still counts if a man says ILY during sex, doesn't it?

Jo.