Well today this guy who was a former client of mine (well technically a financial backer) rang me up and said I owe him £100.

Apparently it was from a business loan years ago and he asked H for the money, and wrote to him in January 04. I didn't get the business back till June 04 (had previously served H with court papers to kick him into giving me my business back).

Client ran into H at that demo I told you about, and said to him he hadn't done the business for 2 years (lie) - he didn't give it back until June so he lied to the client, who incidently was also a joint friend of ours since 1994.

I had to then explain the whole scenario to the client, apologising etc and blooming annoyed that H is lying yet again (one of his bad traits - the 4%, he doesn't tell the truth. Lies to get himself out of situations, changes stuff to suit his needs etc).

Anyway, my business is not breaking even, largely because of the separation/D and H having control of it for 2 yrs and then running it into the ground. I can pay him the £100 but now I have no money to do another print run, and the book sales are my income so I'm just stuck thinking OMG.

I've asked H to put the latest one on the web to increase sales and that might help, but boy am I pissed off as he caused all this is the first place!

We talked normally on the phone and arranged that he and the kids come over for the day on Bank holiday Monday (I'm seeing him Saturday as well) and I didn't let on that I am upset.

I just wish he could quit lying to people and show a bit more concern for my business. I paid him 4 days ago to put advertising on the web and he's done nothing yet..keeps saying he's busy with the kids. It's alright when you're on b***dy welfare but I don't want to have to work in a supermarket because this has happened!

Honestly, sometimes I feel like I'm the H, and I wouldn't mind so much if he was actually committed. Just now I feel like I'm the only one who cares about my work.

Drinking Bailey's and feeling miserable I have to snap out of it and be like an angel when he visits on Saturday, so help me out guys.

Jo.