Jo what a life you have had. It is so different than I ever imagined. I see that my suggestions would be difficult for you to do at this time and likely so for quite a while.
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I never wanted to save my parents M, I was so sick of the fighting I wanted it to end
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I have been in that situation a couple of times with SF and my mother fighting. When SF was gone, family life was so calm.
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she's as awful as that kid in 'OMEN'
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OUCH!
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She will probably die before I have forgiven her. Every time I think about it, I just can't, and I love people, I really do.
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Jo. I am sorry your family is so fragmented and you guys do not look out for each other. What a shame. I understand why you don't have connection to them.
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Anyway, sorry for being a bit morose. She has that affect on me.
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JO. Don't feel sorry about writing about your true feelings. I have experienced some of the same issues with my step father. My older brother rescued me form SF's anger so I had someone to look out for me. My sisters were distant but always pleasant to me.
I had 1 brother about 18 years older than me and 4 sisters 20 to 4 years older than me. My mother was almost 42 when I was born. I have your birth weight beat by a very large amount. O' and I was born late too.
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I've already told H our M wouldn't work with her in it, and he agrees.
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I can see why you felt so happy to be with your H for 8 years. He sounds like a good protector.
