My posts make you blush?? I didn't think I'd put anything in them apart from the one about OS in the SSM forum in response to Cemar's post.
Well, as long as nobody is offended. The book I'm writing is much, much more explicit than anything I've posted on here so I thought I was being mild I've also got a diary which is even worse than the book because it helps to have it written down so I don't miss him so much when he isn't here.
When he was seeing the OW, I emailed her my diary, but with the '18' rated bits edited out. Then she said 'It's a shame you edited it, I want to read the whole lot.' Well, I was worried because I'm not a spiteful person and I didn't want to upset her. I hated the fact that she'd gone anywhere near my H, but I still wouldn't want to cause her pain, so I asked her if she was sure. She said yes. So I sent her the unabridged version. I was thinking she'd be all upset, but she actually said she 'enjoyed' reading about it because it was more than he ever gave her
Speechless would be a good word to describe how I felt. We (me and Ow) became friends for a few weeks, and that really bugged H. When we were fed up of him messing the 2 of us around, we actually talked about going on holiday to Cyprus together and leaving him with the kids!
Then of course, they jointly ended their R and he said he didn't love her and came to me so I haven't really heard from her since and feel it is just as well. She has a bf now but I get the impression there is some resentment there because he didn't choose her.
But anyway, she seemed to think I should write erotica for a living and said my book would be a 'bestseller' I am seriously thinking of doing her idea.
But do you reckon on here if me and H ML should I just write 'we ML' and leave out the conversation??
Don't want to embarrass anybody on here or my H if he reads this, but at the same time, my purpose for writing it on these BB's was to give hope and inspiration to those of you trying to attain R's with your estranged spouses..kinda like, if I can do it in my circumstances, anyone can, and it can still be romantic etc, you know what I mean?
