Chapter 2: Healing, a long ways to go yet

[psluke]

So, this is the post where I feel like you were doing great solving your own stuff!

Ok, more thinking. I think it is some pain left. Some anger left. Some total confusion of what was real in my marriage and someone close to just share with going through this difficult time right now.

OK...so can you think of things to do to alleviate this?

I think the only thing I can do here is keep processing the feelings, keep turning and examining and coming up with answers that I feel were what went on and hopefully eventually heal.

My life feels very disorganized at the moment and I feel swamped when even trying to think of getting it in order.

babysteps...what's one small thing you could do today to feel more organized?

I got my taxes done.

I think I need a plan of action to get me motivated and past the point I am stuck on at the moment!

Biggest thing is to remember one step at a time. Second biggest thing is if I get home and I don't have to go somewhere I become a lump for the most part and don't get anything done, besides bare minimum!

Allrighty! so, small steps to get you moving...what does that mean to you?

To me that means having 2 or 3 small things in mind before I ever get home that I want to accomplish that evening.

Hmmm...another thought. When I feel very free and rope dropped is when I feel best, but I don't stay there!

Right at the moment I am gripping the rope very tightly and I seem to do it when really stressed, even if the stress isn't related to the divorce!

What about a part time job, Pam? Maybe working with animals? Would get you out of the house and would bring in some extra $. I'm not talking about a jillion hours...but maybe just a few hours a week? Get out, meet some new people, get some new skills?

or what about volunteering at a vet or something?

Sage

I think a part time job right now would really add to my stress. I am running so much with the kids with their activities and to the vet that I feel tired a lot of the time right now. When tired I know I am more likely to get down. I really am enjoying all of the new people I am meeting with the dog activities, it is fun.

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