Ok, more thinking. I think it is some pain left. Some anger left. Some total confusion of what was real in my marriage and someone close to just share with going through this difficult time right now.
My life feels very disorganized at the moment and I feel swamped when even trying to think of getting it in order.
Best guess that is part of the reason that I am depressed and just barely functional at the moment.
I am not even going to paid for dog classes right now. Of course none of them are close and I don't have the gas in the car to make the trip.
I think I need a plan of action to get me motivated and past the point I am stuck on at the moment!
Biggest thing is to remember one step at a time. Second biggest thing is if I get home and I don't have to go somewhere I become a lump for the most part and don't get anything done, besides bare minimum!
Hmmm...another thought. When I feel very free and rope dropped is when I feel best, but I don't stay there!
Right at the moment I am gripping the rope very tightly and I seem to do it when really stressed, even if the stress isn't related to the divorce!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Of course none of them are close and I don't have the gas in the car to make the trip. 
