Amazing how my thoughts change with my moods.

I think yesterday I was feeling very helpless because of Breeze and not knowing or being able to help her and that rather led me into feeling the victim in more areas of my life!

I had a choice and I CHOSE to trust David and try to rebuild our marriage the same as he had choices and he chose not to try to rebuild our marriage. Much as I hate that I can sort of understand it. All those feelings for the new love in his life versus coming back and working our cr*p out. Plus he I think had strong feelings left from his previous affair with Janice so there was just more there to build on then with us for him.

Still hurts, I still miss the person I married. I don't miss the person he became in the end. But then I don't miss the person I became in the end either!!!!

B ate some last night late and a bit today. Tonight so far she isn't too interested in eating but the evening isn't over yet! I can be as stubborn as her I hope.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"