I actually started another thread as I feel I am going to need help and support to finish getting through processing my feelings and there isn't a better place than the bb to go for that kind of help.
I sometimes look at where I am and think I'm not in a bad place. That is when I am thinking logically. Then sometimes I just want to crawl in bed and not ever get up. I really do not like feeling that way and I don't know WHY I feel that way. D has been gone for a long time, I would not think it would still be sorrow over his leaving. I wonder if part of the reason I sometimes feel as if I have no reason to live is my low self worth. If I'm not important to someone I lose a sense of purpose. I have no idea if this makes any sense. Just trying to find answers so I can address the problem. The server is down and I am basically stalled and doing more thinking. I don't mean I feel down like before just that zest and desire for living isn't there!
I wasn't really irked with my C, I think I am gun shy when I feel we aren't making progress, because of my experience with my previous C. I do too much talking and it isn't focused. You know how my threads can be, especially in the past. I felt I was telling her what was going on, but was all over the place and the 45 minutes were up and I didn't feel I received any feedback or gained any ground in my last session.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I don't mean I feel down like before just that zest and desire for living isn't there!
