Sometimes I am good and sometimes I'm not. But I am working to give myself slack that I am healing and my pace can't be measured against anyone else's, because we each deal with things in our own way.
I am making new aquatainces that seem to be on their way to becoming good friendships but it isn't the same as having the companionship of a spouse to share with is it? I don't think there is a way to fill that hole, you just have to adjust to it being there and focus on what is in your life.
At least if there is another way to fill it I haven't found it yet.
What a crazy world at times isn't it?
In two weeks I am going to a farm north east of Indianapolis, where I will know no one and no one is going with me! That is not the old me. I would never dreamed of doing anything like this in the past. It is for a herding seminar and I am actually looking forward to it!
If there are no problems having the day off I will go up early Friday and spend the night at the farmhouse as some of the other people are doing. The seminar starts at 8 am and not sure I would want to make that early of a trip on Saturday morning.
I do need to figure out a dish to take for a pitch in dinner at the farmhouse that night and what to pack for breakfast and lunch the following day as no food is available and I have no idea how close to town this place is located. If I could remember the name I would ask you if you know where it is at!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
