As you may have seen I am back on the boards again, but I am in a different place emotionally than where I was 4 or 5 months ago.
I have to say that you sound good. There is a tinge of sadness for what could have been, but isn't, but on the whole you sound like you have a very healthy self awareness.
I read somewhere that second marriages that start w/in 3 years of the first marriage ending are even more likely than usual to end in divorce. We do not like to think of oursleves as statistics, but I know how hard it is to keep any marriage alive.
Although I have not filed for a D, I too miss the companionship of a spouse. Even though I have great friends it is still hard not to have a spouse to share the journey with, but like you said, I wouldn't want him now in his present incarnation anyway.
