Am I doing well today? Actually, no. Funny, right? Here I am writing "detach!", "don't dwell" but I'm permitting myself to miss her deeply today. This is also no help but I'm listening to Chris Isaak singing 'Forever Blue', because the lyrics are dead on what I'm feeling, and I'm just letting it out and working through it:
"Nobody ever warns you
or tells you what to do.
She walks away, you're left to stay alone, forever blue.
The stars have all stopped shining.
The sun just won't break through.
Each day's the same. More clouds, more rain.
You're left forever blue.
Forever blue 'cause you love her, but she doesn't love you.
You did your best. Life did the rest.
You're left forever blue.
No reason left for living. Still there's a lot to do:
New tears to cry. Old songs to sing.
And feel forever blue.
And be forever blue."
I'll be OK. It's just part of the process. Thanks for your care. Don't neglect my prayer request, I'm covering all bases.
