I know right now you probably have a million different thoughts running through your head about how to proceed from here. Believe me I know, I do it everyday. I have said those words to H a few times but he does not take me seriously. If you want any credibility in what has happened you have to follow through. Unfortunately it is scary and you dont know what is right and wrong anymore. Take a deep breath, and start to make a list of goals for yourself. Start calculating how you will be able to proceed financially. You could approach H and say I have let you think about what I have said for a few days, what is your answer. I fear that would be too much pressure tho. But if you dont bring it up it looks like you werent serious. I am so confused for you right now because I am battling the same thing. I did say the same thing to H just this weekend. But I want him to leave, I will not leave our home. He doesnt want this life then he should leave. I am here for you even if it is just to ramble ok I am thinking of you alot
