It has been an up and down kind of day. When I think I am okay, the tears come again.
I am not sure what H thinks or if he just thinks this is another empty threat. I have asked him to leave before but have not followed it up with any action.
I am not even sure if I will get an answer from him or if he will just make me start taking action. I just know I can't do this during the summer. That means I need to act now.
It is scary to think about this and overwhelming. We do not have the finances to support two households. I hate that for my kids. If it were just me then it would be different. We live a comfortable life and the kids are used to that.
I don't think H has a clue how things will change but he needs to get out there and see it isn't always greener on the other side and he can't spend money like he is used to doing. He will be paying child support. I have been thinking about this for awhile now and I know he hasn't. He has been in his little fantasy world. He will also have to come clean and tell his family and people will begin to find out. I have already told him I am not lying anymore for him. I also told him me and the kids will not be going to Easter dinner with his family. I refuse to go and act like everything is okay.
