First I am SO SORRY you are feeling this way. My H's cellphone minutes are that high too EVERY month. It is a problem that H still cant see. The money that he is costing us is making it hard for me to make ends meet. The other day when I listed on my post that I had a bad night and morning was that I too told my H to choose. I said you can live here and have all that life has to offer WITHOUT OW or you can choose to continue talking to OW but then you have to leave. That is why we had such an up and down weekend with him threatening to leave. Listen it was not a threat, leave, I want him to leave if this is going to continue. But my H is still there, and I have not talked about it since. Just trying to do my own thing. I have alot of the same thoughts as you, if things are not going to be worked on then let me move on and find happiness too. This is so hard, but remember what strengths you do have no matter what happens, and that is your kids. I cant write much more right now but I will post later ok?