Jo Hi, thanks for the welcome. Yeah I think you are right, I think we both need this D because the back and forth for the last two years has been exhausting. I think my H has made his decision he just isn't strong enough to deal with the reality. I haven't had time to read all of your sitch so I'll leave comment until I've read through.
Hi Ellie
I think you are exactly right, he is just not brave enough and he wants me to be the one to take action (even though he says not). I think that is what he is REALLY saying.
Thanks both of you, I'd got myself into a state about it all again, maybe even hearing what I WANTED to hear. I've always resisted "the end" and giving up hope but people around here always say that you will know when the end has come.
I think that end is finally here. But that's ok because with the end comes a new beginning. I probably stick around though because I've got a feeling I'll need the support