Thanks for posting Slowly, Today I worked on "make a good day". Fixed traditional Sunday dinner, even used fancy china. It smelled delicious. So, that was a good start on the day. Conversation was actually interesting and informative.
H slept after lunch. He offered to drive us to mall and waited patiently for DD and I. Those are very positive things in my day. H then went home and I was thankful for that as well.
I'm not sure we actually had a conversation. He kissed me at some point in the day. He does that if our kids are around.
Why am I so dissapointed then? What am I wanting to see? I am keeping current on your thread and realize you are ahead of me on the path here. I'm still very skitish with the thot it is gonna be ok. Gut feeling is not believing he is real. So even with a pretty positve day, the shadow of doubt is haunting me.
Goal for the week:
Take the two mile walk each day, if not outside then on the dreaded treadmill.
Only visit mall on Wed as already planned with DD
I will not call H
I will do solution journal each night, this week has potential to skyrocket in stress and I can be prepared.(extra families coming-9 more)
I will not give up on the POJA--it can be on hold.
