Well All, I've finally reached the end of my rope. I've found over the last several months...going back to BEFORE the bomb...that my W has been talking to a number of different men. I finally climbed over the passive aggressive mountain last night and brought up the issue. It didn't go well. She claimed that they were her FRIENDS and she deserved to have friends. I don't disagree but I tried to explain that the timing is suspect. She never denied that they weren't initially "interests" for her. She claimed that she made her decision to leave two years ago but has just now gotten the balls to do it. She "resented" the fact that I don't trust her and decided that I'm creating the "man" issue in my head to have something against her.
AND, guess what issue she hasn't dropped. Yep, I'm still gay in her mind. No proof mind you...just intuition. And, all her friends have also known it for a long time. She just wants me to be free and happy. And SHE wants to be free and happy. "Look how good this can be for the both of us!"
Okay, FIRST, it isn't good for both of us. AND most importantly, it isn't good for our kids!! WE HAVE A FRICKIN' FAMILY!! Second, I am not gay. So, her premise for seeking to be out of the relationship is false.
After last night, I know our marriage is over. There is nothing I can do or say that will change her mind. I just wanted to share that with you guys. As long as she has these interests and there are at least three...and yes she even got dreamy-eyed when I mentioned one of them...and as long as she has her friends supporting her erroneous theory...WE have no hope.
Just thought I'd share that (sorry to steal your words HP) crap sandwich with you guys first thing on a Saturday morning!
Please pray for strength for me...I'm not feeling it today. Now, I'm off with my happy mask to my son's baseball game.
