JJ--I now understand what you meant by your question. I completely read it wrong...and now that I've gone back and looked...I'm a little embarrassed at my outburst. Please accept my apologies. You have a very good point and while I don't mean to minimize my W's feelings, I probably do it more often than intended.
I guess I have trouble with my tone, whether I'm talking OR writing. People frequently misinterpret my tone of voice (the W included). I wonder why it is that I am not able convey what I want to say in the appropriate tone. But, I know my W's feelings are valid--whether or not I agree.
I am frustrated. I just wanted some understanding from her and some validation that I'm not completely beyond repair. Does that make sense? So, I start feeling sorry for myself and strike-out inappropriately (in tone only). It is so hard to love somebody so much and not be able to show it appropriately because of something that isn't firmly in your control.
I appreciate all of you so much. You guys do so much to pull me back to reality--whether I want to be there or not.
I am so thankful for my kids! They are the purest joy in my life at this point. I never want to hurt them...in any way.
I am doing the best I can with all of this. Over the last week, I've lost sight of my goals. I tend to do that when some of them are met. I focus on what I accomplished and take my eyes off all the others. So, I need to re-direct my energies to achieving ALL of my goals.
Here's a GREAT BIG BEAR HUG to each of you--JJ, GEL and Honey!! You guys are the greatest!!!!!! K
