NYSurvivor, I'm thinking getting H in the ring might do me some good! (referring to your WWF comment)
I know what you are saying.....how can SO many people be wrong if they say this or that worked for them! I'm an intelligent woman and WANT so much to believe these methods will work. I guess I still have this fear that it's for nothing. I told myself a long time ago that I was keeping my distance throughout our marriage so that when he did leave me eventually (which I always believed he'd do) I wouldn't be so devastated since I was PLANNING for it. Stupid, stupid stupid. I know now that wasn't quite the right attitude. I'm working to change the self esteem issue. I really am. I'm just having such a hard time with him telling me he won't give up the OW just yet. You know, we were really doing well I thought up until that night I asked him if he's talked to OW and he said no, then changed his answer to yes, 2 times. I hadn't brought it up in quite some time and things seemed to be going well. I think I thought I needed a "progression check" to see if we were both on the same page. Obviously not. That's what I had feared. I called what he was doing with me "pretending" and that made him mad. H said, it's not pretending and that it came naturally. OK, I was harsh last night. I was upset. Feeling alone again. I do thank you for your words of encouragement. I don't seem to get them from anyone else so I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I promise, I'm trying!! Today is a new day. Not looking back, only forward.
