Being patient feels so wrong. I feel like he either wants to put 100% into us or not. It's one or the other. How much more patient can I be? I feel like I want him out now if he is still wanting to talk to her. Go live with her....oh yeah, she lives with her H. Guess you can't go there. I'm tired of crying, worrying, being sad, then being happy, then getting kicked in the teeth again like I did tonight by him telling me he isn't willing to give her up. How stupid does that make me? Oh sure, take your time....I'll be here being sweet and loving you while you decide. Then when he decides he's just "not feeling it" with me, he's out of here. How can he in good conscious do that to me after 18 years of M and 2 kids? How does this all make sense to him in HIS head? I just don't see how it can. I've rambled WAY too long. My tears are stinging my eyes. Thanks for listening. Again.
