Well, H just gave me some very hurtful info. He says he's not ready to give up the OW. (Talking to her) There is got to be something that he's waiting for to happen in order for him to make this descision! He says yes, it's been comfortable around here, no underlying tension. How can I go on thinking that we're on the right track when he even tells me to my face that he's not ready to stop talking to her. I told him obviously he's not giving our M 100% then. He keeps saying he understands how this is so confusing for me. Well then, STOP doing this to me! Did I want to know that he's not ready to give up the OW yet? NO. Do I want to be left in the dark THINKING he's not talking to her and that he wants to work on our M? It's like I'm just fooling myself. If he honestly isn't ready to give up talking to her, then I can't continue to work on this marriage. I don't care what those books say....I can't do this alone. He has no idea what he does to me by saying he still 'wants' to talk to her. What am I? An idiot? I can't take much more.
