Journaling: When I went to wake H this morning, I just looked at him and smiled. He smiled back, which is unusual because he is the crankiest man on earth in the morning. So that was nice.
I told him I would be at our hangout at 4:30 tonight to meet with our friends. He has to work until 6 and I asked if he would come by and he said maybe. I think he will probably show up, but I hate that he can't commit to anything--drives me crazy. I didn't say anything though.
I wish he would say ILY and wear his ring, but he still doesn't. I'm not asking, just hoping. He got his house all cleaned out so he doesn't have that to worry about anymore. He is going on a work retreat Sunday through Tuesday. Last year when he went, he had OW--I didn't know it then. They had been calling each other all during the time. I feel a little anxious about that, but I know there isn't an OW now so it is just a residual feeling I guess. I know he is a little stressed about going--he doesn't like that kind of stuff, so he is bound to be a little distant until he gets back. Just have to remember that and not take it personal.
For the most part, I am pretty happy with the way things are. I'm keeping my anxiety under control and choosing new ways of dealing with problems that upset me. I'm paying more attention to me and how I'm reacting and feeling. DBing is good!
