It is absurd, but after being resolute about detaching last week, I found myself crying in the shower. Well, at least the tears didn't make a mess there!
I guess Ellie you may be right. Who knows what OW2 is really doing there? She may have come to plead. She may be back with H and they may be planning a life together, who knows. I cannot live H's life for him. I don't want him interferring in mine, I will have to let him get on with his.
Ellie, there were many things wrong with our marriage before this. But betrayal, such hideousness was not present. Many needs not being met, selfishness, yes. I guess I didn't have the tools to bring out the best in H during our marriage. I never got the chance, really. Once I had the tools (some of them) H was well into his crisis and not open to that stuff. He is well ensconced in his present path.
His relationship with OW2 is hardly stable, whatever else it is. He was pretty anti OW2 last year after he split up with her the first time, and he was confiding in me.
I think it is a relationship born of his desperate need. And probably hers.
While I can't imagine getting involved with a guy just out of desperation. Even though I am desperately low and lonely at times.
Today, Easter Sunday, I am devoting to cleaning and tidying the house and doing chores. I am on my own here and it is a cold, dark wet day outside!
At least good friend called just now for a chat. She too is working at home!
In the evening I am going to watch a DVD and have a glass of wine, in a clean house.
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
