Hi Pamila, I just wanted you to know that I'm following your thread, not posting much because I'm finding I hardly have a minute to do so these days. and I'm not sure I have much to offer other than my support for you. It does sound like you've come a long way for yourself in the GAL dept, which we have all learned painfully is the "MUST DO" part of surviving this stuff. I have to say that I do see still hope in your sitch, if your M is what you want. this long arduous path gets hard to stay on, huh?
I found the post on your thread the other day from leftandnowhy (I thinkK) to be so helpful....I really felt like God led me to that when I needed it.
I thought I might mention to you a book I found helpful: "Men in Midlife Crisis" by Jim Conway. You may very well have already read it, but it sure had an encouraging and calming influence on me, and I felt like I gained a lot of understanding.