Well it has been a busy couple of days, lots of things to do and be done.
Friday I worked, got a facial, went to dinner with a friend, and went to S12's dance.
Amazing how "grown up" S12 is becoming. In some ways he is a lot like his dad. He is a go with the flow kind of guy, always comfortable in a crowd, both with other boys and members of the opposite sex. When it came time for the dance where the girls get to pick their partner, S12 was one of the first chosen. He is handsome, self assured, charming. He's got the moves.
S15 is the son who is the most like me, temperment and personality wise. He is careful, conscientious, thinks too much. He finishes my sentences. S12 has a bevy of friends, S15 has one close friend and a few other buddies. It seems like every year S15 has a good friend that has moved away. That has happened at least 4 times, and he doesn't seem to acquire friends (if that is the right thought) to replace the ones that he has "lost." S12 is the ladies man, S15 is tongue tied around girls.
I say all this not because I think that I need to compare them, but it helps me sort of put things in perspective, understand them better I guess.
Yesterday I had an appt with my counselor, the first time in a month or so. Helpful to think about ways I could disentangle myself from H while I am waiting to see if a D becomes the inevitable answer.
Made dinner for a friend last night. Tried two new recipes. I made a salad with fresh chilled asparagus, a cream based seafood soup, and chocolate tiramisu.
It really felt good to just be here at home, by myself while S12 and S15 are gone camping. Somehow it is just different than when I am here at home during the day and they are at school.
