Well I went to the real estate closing on Monday, but the amount that I walked home with is a lot less than what I thought it would be.
On the bright side, it is one less financial entanglement between H and I and our friends.
It was spoiled however by the fact that I found out Monday, that H cleaned out an e-trade account that we have.
Had the $ wire transferred to some account of his. I have no idea what he did with it.
I am sorry to say that I have less and less inclination to keep going. I do not like the man that my H has become. He is a liar and a fool not to mention an adulterer.
Monday night I talked with an old dear friend of mine. She and I worked together many years ago in Chicago. She is a mentor of sorts to me, she is about 72 years old and exemplifies living a spirit filled Christian life. Friend came to our wedding and knows H, but has not seen him since her 70th birthday a few years back.
My friend was separated from her H after her kids were out of the house, she stuck it out that long for the sake of the kids, though her H was messing around on her. Years later they finally got a D, and he re-married to a woman who is young enough to be his daughter.
Now, finally, after all these years friend's ex-H is saying that he made a huge mistake. He goes around speaking to Christain men's groups encouraging men to stick it out with their marriages. After 25 years he came and apologized to my friend for all that he has done. But I think it is very bittersweet for her. And I wonder what his current wife thinks about all this.
So my friend knows firsthand the pain and agony of an MLC and tells me it may take many years to resolve.
I have never thought of myself as a quitter, but things really seem hopeless. It is pretty sad when H calls and talks to the kids and I secretly hope that he WONT ask to talk to me. I don't have anything to say to him anymore. I got tired of putting my heart out there and getting it broken time and time again.
