I can relate to the feeling jaded. The entire time I was DBing my H was cheating on me. I didn't have a clue. I saw signs of it but dismissed them because I was too busy looking for baby steps. I thought I was seeing baby steps but now realize he just became a better liar.
I know how hard it is to realize that you should end it. I have filed. As much as my H disgusts me now, I still find myself hanging onto a slim thread he will return to the man he was when I married him. Unfortunately, reality is setting in that its not likely to happen. He is happy with his lifestyle. He is just not happy he got caught.
Giving up is just as hard as trying to keep it together. I find myself wishing that I would have given up before I found out everything my H was up to but I know that if I had, I would have spent years of my life debating whether I made the right decision. Now I know I made the right decision.
I continue to DB just not with H. I hope the skills I have learned will help in any future Rs I have.
