I am still getting used to being back. LnL when I peeked back at my old thread I saw that you had reached out to say "hi" thanks for trying. I literally didn't even lurk one time.
I would have said even a day or two ago that I was still trying to db, but in reading the posts of others I guess maybe that is not so true.
It strikes me now, if I was totally honest, as a little bit bizarre how we all wait and watch for the tiniest sign of progress in our sitch's. Meanwhile our H's are still up to their eyeballs in their A's. And here we are "acting as if," getting a life and trying to be irresistable, attractive etc.
I feel so jaded. I just want to be loved and respected and right now that looks to be a million miles away from where I sit here on this cold snowy morning.
Is it just me?
Has the coaster ride been so long and painful that I have lost the will to even try? How do I even psych myself up for what looks like a hopeless cause?
