I am at home on this Friday night and D1 is sleeping. H left on bad terms probably so he doesnt feel so guilty about being rude. I am hurting again....wondering how I have failed in my marriage. I was thinking about the OW and how happy she must be that H has left me to be with her....she probaly feels that she has won. The thing is that H is the loser...he left without the prize (me) he went for the loser (OW). I hate being lied to and I hate rude people...I feel that my H should grow some balls and admit to what he is doing....it might be hard at first but I would understand and then stop trying. I have been thinking about myself lately and I wish that I could find someone as wonderful as I am...(not being weird) but I have done everything to forgive and help us move on when he hasnt done anything but run. That sounds silly but why do I want to chase someone that supposedly doesnt love me. I want to be strong....I hate feeling like a disease and being alone. I am sick of fighting. (okay I have gone on and on) I am feeling a little better.....Please pray for strength for me. Hope that you all are having a great Friday night.
