Mel... Thanks thats an interesting web page. THanks for your support
Sherry... Thanks for your support too! It helps to know that there are people out there who care.
Well... Update time.... Nothing really is new except H is becoming more distant. He got home from work at 3pm yesterday and went out drinking until 730pm. H would not call or return my call. I needed to know his schedule for today so I could advise the sitter. No real communication is going on....I still try to always be happy...but now he goes out and keeps taking more and more money out to do these things. Am I suppose to be smiling when I am the bill payer. I dont want him to leave me but I cant let him try and break the bank becuase I dont know if I am suppose to say anything to him. H told me last night that he is going to go to the drag races tonight so that he wont be home. Why doenst he have to worry about D, bills, the laundry....I work a lot and have everything else to think about....why should he just be able to be happy getting out and leaving me to do everything. I love my H but what do I do now. My mom is always talking about how he should be treating my wonderful with all that I do for him....I hate hearing that...I do things because I love him.
Am I doing something incorrectly with the 180/DB thing...Should I just tell him to go so that he can feel some of the burdens.
I hate the feeling that I am a nothing in his life. I want to be love and cherished. I dont like being ignored or taken advantage of.
