Thanks for your advise and taking out time to give me some.
Ny.. Its really has been along time and it seems that you are quite contempt in your life. I love all of your analogies. I think that word has spread through friends. I dont believe that she would be able to not talk to you for three weeks. You know curiosity kills that cat....satisfaction brings them back. I feel that your W is getting the information that she needs from someone. I am sure... almost 100% that it would drive her crazy if she didnt know what was going on. Stay strong and sweet....a lot of us here love to hear your advise and to hear what is going on with you. I am so happy that you are not slumming around and congrats on the couple of hook ups.
Well, my update is.... H and I of course spoke for a few minutes last night about the R. H told me that he just has no intreast in trying to work things out with me. :-( He said that he doesnt think life will ever get better between us...(I didnt think that is was ever that bad until we have spat about the affair) We agreed that we hate arguing with eachother and it is just too much now. I told him(I was strong and no tears) that maybe it is best that he leaves for awhile to clear his mind and work on himself.(I dont want him to leave) I told him that I cant argue anymore. I told him that I am willing to trust him again and I just want to be happy. H said that he isnt sure that he can be trusted(Ouch) he said that he never meant to be unfaithful...he doesnt understand it. We had a good night afterwards...he told me how beautiful I am and that he hopes that things can work out between us one day. I am giving him more space to do his thing while he is still there. He said that he doesnt want to hurt me anymore thats why it is hard to talk sometimes....he feels guilty for what he has done.(then why doesnt he stop talking to her.....I think that he really believes that he can be friends with her w/o any sexual tendencies)(NOT) I am really trying to be strong....I really hope that things one day might be great with us(I am hoping)(I am praying) I love my H and dont want him to leave....I think that it will be to hard for me....I wish that I could make him stay and make everything better again...but I always told him that I would never force him into anything.
Does anyone have any ideas...so that he might stay at the house? I am trying to be wonderful while he is there...and forever....I really want this M to work out! All info is appreciated!
