Me? OK... I'm not missing my ex like I used to... I'm getting used to being single, having a few flings, still GAL myself. The neat thing about learning to be "alone" is the sense of independent ability that is growing... that I don't need to be with someone to be complete. Though I would love to love someone and be loved, but can do without someone too... but not wish to forever. That's giving me an ever stronger basis to my life, I recommend it.
If I may threadjack for a second, here's my update. Haven't heard from the WAW for near three weeks now. Though she's had glimpses of some interesting new things in my life, I haven't heard from her, so I'd appreciate some thoughts here.
In late February when I saw her last for a lunch date, the "buzz" I mentioned to her about my life was that a director I met was interested in having me read for her, I had met a playwright who was getting backing for a new musical and there was a shot that I could be a member of the chorus, was going to have a couple of my photos exhibit in a show, I was dating... in other words, some new and novel possibilities were budding in my life and she seemed wowed by them... but the monkey in her hasn't contacted me to find out any more about these shiny new things in my camp...
You see, monkeys (WAS) get curious and when the hunters (LBS) leave camp (back off and move on), they come into the camp to check out the things they noticed that are new and shiny (the LBS's new life and interests they're not familiar with). Then when they figure the new things in the camp are more fun than their camp (life with the OP), they hang around and slowly, slowly, the hunters catch them.
Though we communicated briefly in March regarding taxes, there was nothing on her part asking about how these things were coming along. And now... silence.
So I'm thinking a few things. 1. The obvious, she's not interested in me or my life. Which seems odd, because if she wasn't interested, then why bother with making lunch dates to meet up with me and spend 3 to 4 hours with me on those occasions? Unless it's because....
2. That was then and this is now, and so she was interested at that time in February, but then interest dropped off for some reason instead of being piqued? In thinking that, there's also that she's not kept me up to date on some projects she was working on that she said she would. And if she's got to get in to town since February to pick up supplies, ya'd think she'd let me know so as to meet up for lunch again, but as I said, there's been no call from her. Or is it...
3. she is interested, but not showing it and waiting on me to make a call to her. See who blinks first kind of thing. The theory is that my silence is eating her, but she doesn't want to show me that she's interested. She's stubborn. Or...
4. what else may be happening? My inquiring mind wants to know. Anybody have an anecdotal experience that may shed a bit of light?
