I'm sorry to hear this. You are now wher I was in December & January. There were times that I thought I couldn't go on. But It can and will get better. Jus tstart showing him you can GAL. Do you have the ability to see a counselor, even you alone? Do you have health insurance that will cover it? If not, I'm sure you can find counseling services at no charge somewhere, such as LA County Health or a local Church.
Plus you've got all of us you know. Through reading your posts both here and on my thread, it sure sounds like you've got a lot going on for yourself. I know that you've really said some things on my thread to pump me up!
One of two things can happen when you show him that you have the ability to move on. 1) He sees you in a new light now and says, "Damn, she's awesome and I really am blowing it (or blew it)", or 2) You actually move on and find someone else and more importantly find YOURSELF, the one you didn't know was in there.
B, look in the mirror and see the tremendous person that you are inside and project thtat to the outside world. Things will get better.
I must trek out into the cold Seattle streets in search of breakfast. When I am at the game today, I'll tell former Dodger team MVP Adrian Beltre that you said Hi.
