Hang in there. Right now focus on you and GAL. When I do this I find I don't worry or think about H as much. Try to detach and not figure everything out. I know that is hard, we just want answers. But unfortunately we can't get them right now. So push those thoughts and questions out and try to focus on other things.
You have been doing well. Keep it up. Do something for YOU. Are you GAL? Go out tonight when H gets home.
