Well, another day is gone...I am thanking myself that I didnt think that kiss really meant something. H came home last night around 815p and I could tell that he was having one of his I dont feel like being married modes....What causes this? H ate dinner and showered and to bed....I took a shower folded the clothes and the to bed I went. He was watching tv...being quiet...so i said good night! This morning I could see the mood didnt change....he said have a good day and then started walking out the door....ding dong me said...whats wrong with you(I was being nice)I said dont give up and fight that bad feeling that your head is telling you. He said its hard...sometimes I want to try and sometimes I dont. Then I told him what about Sunday...you told me that you love me with all of your heart....he said no I didnt say that I said I heart you with all of my love....I said that means the same thing. I smiled because I wanted to frown and then told him to have a great day. I hate that I told him not to give up but I felt in my heart that it was the right thing to do. Why is everything about him...how he feels and what he wants...when I try to focus on the both of us. Can this marriage work out....I dont know but I wish that he could be one way long enough so that I could try to understand... What do you think I should do next?????
