Well, Last night for me was hell. After H was rude all day and hung up on me after he said again about a D....I get home and his mom is there to stay a few days. (I love his mom so that is okay) I just hate that she is there when things are so yucky with us. H like to smirk and get his way because I dont want to be disrespectful in fron of his mother. He told her that he has been thinking about D. I broke down and cried about it.( Stupid ME) I am going to hold my head up and just take every moment at a time. Think towards me and my daughter. Between all of us I am still really hurt. I dont want the D. H told me when talking that if he really wanted the D he would have moved out already....I said the only reason that you havent is because you are going to have the money that you have now. He said that he would manage...probably OW $.(Just Kidding) I am going to take that as a baby step...I just wish that I could feel appreciated. But I went and got my nails and feet done last night....visited my grandfather and went tanning.....finally a GAL experience. It relaxed me :-) I am still confused about everything and all of his sly remarks. He hasnt hugged or touched me in a long time now.....I am a little lonely in that area...(LOL). I just hate to be blamed for everyhting....I feel like slime at the bottom of the lake. Anybody have any suggestions on how to stay cool during all of this?
