I have been having such a hard time lately. I hate this entire ordeal. I get mixed messages and then one day I wake up feeling good and H shots me down regarding the D. I want to be happy I just feel like I cant anymore. I havent given up but whatever I do I just feel like I push H away instead of bring him back. I hate when he complains...I feel like what does he have to complain about when I am doing all the work (180) I am trying to be the best that I can but then when H complains about something I didnt do or whatever he does....I feel like screaming about all of the other things that I am doing in order to make him understand. I keep my mouth shut even though H does nothing to help. i feel like giving up but my heart isnt sure. I dont know what to do anymore....Is anything that I do right? Any help out there?
