Well...things are still hard for me...just like all of the rest of you. H talked to me last night and told me that he wishes that we could stay married but he doesnt know what is wrong with him because something inside of him doesnt want to be married. He did the I love you but I am not sure if I am in love with you thing...he told me that he is sorry for hurting me and it kills him inside. I asked him about how he said that he would never file for a D and he said that then he would never have to marry any other person because he would still be married....I didnt think that was funny. I dont know what he is going through and I dont know how to help him out. I didnt ask him about the OW all I said was that if I do find out he is sleeping with someone I really will leave him. I guess that if he really wants a D all he has to do is tell me that ...huh! He said that he is not doing that...I dont believe him.....actions speak louder than words...Right! I really do love him but I dont know where to go from here. I do believe that he loves me but I think that he is really confused. H really does have a lot to lose. He said that we had a great time together on Sunday and he really enjoyed himself...then he said that when he woke up he had that I dont want to be married feeling in him again and he hates feeling like that. Well, where do I go now! He must have gotten up and had that feeling again because he was really mean and nasty with me this morning. I use to love roller coaster rides but this one is making me sick.....Does anyone have any thoughts.
