Well everyone....Its Monday morning and the weekend is over...believe it or not I am kind of happy...work keeps my mind from wandering. I really feel like I need support from you all today. Friday night was awful for me...Saturday H slept off his alcohol from the night before and I was so disgusted that I went to my cousins house for the night. Sunday morning he called me and told me that he thought that I was going to come home on Saturday night (my new joke is guess how I get my H to stay home on a Saturday night.......I have to leave) I came home Sunday morning and we had a really nice day....we got out and about with our daughter. My mom watched D1 last night and I just wanted to enjoy H company. The part that I really need your help on is....I want my H to admit that he was with the OW....if I know that I am ready for our M to be over. I dont think that I can do the DBing thing anymore. Its not fair to me that he goes and f*&%s that whore and comes home to loving wife that is happy. I dont want to get a disease from my H....I am trying to be the wonderful wife that I am suppose to be...but at the same time I am feeling that its not right to let him do whatever or whomever he wants and then have Mrs Wonderful at home with a smile on her face....then he feels everything is okay to do whatever he wants. DOES this sound crazy....I am at my last string....Please everybody help.....I dont want to end us but I dont know what to do! Hellllllllppppppp!
