BlondeQT, I'm very, very proud of you!

I was asking myself why does he do this....but then decided not to try and analyze this.

Most excellent. That one bit of H's action could've spawned several posts were you to try and analyze it and not one of those posts may have hit the nail on the head, and even if they did, they'd only reflect a feeling of his from last night.

I know that he is going to go out. Should I just keep a smile on my face and not let it bug me.

You know the answer to that one.

no more backsliding....It just brings me down. I am ready to hold my head up and do what I think is right. Can anyone help me to let me know how i should act and what I shouldnt do...I want to do good but at the same time I am in a state of confussion...

The more you GAL, detach, build PMA et al, the less your confusion will be, the less your turbulence will be. The less you do those things and instead the more you focus on H and analyze and wonder, the more crazy your roller coaster ride will be, and it will be a longer ride.

Two rules of thumb I'll remind you of:

1. Consider your H as you would a close friend, and treat him accordingly. That gives you a path to follow.

2. When in doubt as to what to do, do nothing.