NY...
Thank you and just to let you know...I would rather have 10 children in a row without pain medicine rather than a kidney stone.

Well, again thank all of you for your constant support. It really does help knowing that someone is here to help when you need it.

Well, update on H situation.
After I updated thread with my frusteration last night I decided to relax and take a shower and go to bed. While I was in the shower I saw a shadow...to my surprise H was home form bar after just about an hour...very unusual. I told him good night and went to bed...a little bit later he came to the room and he wanted to cuddle and watcht tv. I did this for a few minutes and the rolled over to sleep. I was asking myself why does he do this....but then ecided not to try and analyze this. Of course this morning the other personality was available....he sid bye and walked out the door with his same old who gives a [censored] attitude. Okay....I am ignoring the attitude and (NY letting it roll off of me) Now it is St Pattys day and I know that he is going to go out. Should I just keep a smile on my face and not let it bug me....i want to start out by doing the correct thing...no more backsliding....It just brings me down. I am ready to hold my head up and do what I think is right. Can anyone help me to let me know how i should act and what I shouldnt do...I want to do good but at the same time I am in a state of confussion...

I want to be on the right path!