NY... When I wrote that on Saturday I could wait for you to help give me some advise....all I felt was despair. I am still trying to move forward with my detachment..it is so hard as you know. I did wash his shirt that night but I DO know that the makeup was not mine. I wish that he would come to realize something....but of course we all do. I have come to realize that I am a good person and no matter what happens I am going to know that I have realy given my all and if the D was to happen I could always look back and know it. I did not ask him about the OW...nor am I going to....but as we all know it really does take everything we have sometimes just to hold it in...especially the tears. I am so happy that I am on this thread because without some of this moral support I know that I would go crazy with my feelings inside. I really have no others to talk to because I dont want anyone to know what is going on between me and my H. Saturday went pretty good H worked all day and when he got home his phone rang with (Unknown) number...the only reason I know this is because he said that he hates answering calls when he doesnt know the person(Yeah Right) I didnt say anything. On Sunday we took the kids and went and did a few things I wish it was always like that...I had a really nice time. We will se what happens today...it is usually when I think that he meets up with her. His attitude usually changes...Oh by the way he told me last night that his work may be sending him out of town for a couple nights...Maybe it will be good for us to get away from each other....maybe give him time to think.
