Well, its another day....they seem so long when you have problems. Well, H came home yesterday with makeup on the arm of his shirt...and must have realized that I looked over at it because he got a little upset and said that he doesnt like when I look at him. I screwed up...I said it looks like you have a little makeup on your shirt. He aske me if I was accusing him of something and I said no that it must have been my makeup from when he got the baby from me. I know in my heart that he was with her yesterday. I just dont understand how the OW could be the OW. Doesnt she have any respect in herself to not date a married man. I heard from another person that the OW and her husband are getting a divorce. Yikes!!!! I guess I dont know where to go from here. H told me that he was sorry that he thought that I was accusing him so he wanted to start over and he gave me a hug and kiss and asked me how my day was. He has told me a few times in the past night that he loves me. I havent talked about our R. I just try to be happy and nice...but inside I hate sharing my H with the OW. I dont want to give up but I feel liek it is coming to that point in my life. I am soooooo hurt and I feel like my smile doesnt want to be on my face anymore. I Do know that I am a great person and good mother....I wish that I could get the strength to make it through this. My daughter is my life and I hate to think that she wont have her daddy around every night. H new thing is to go straight from work to the bar for a couple beers and then comes home. As you can see I am trying but when do I really know that it is time to move on....and face the facts that this marriage might really be over. I really do love my H I just wish that he would live me the same way.....Anyone have advise.
