Okay all you ladies out there...
I implemented some of your suggestions last night...finally! It wasn't the right time before. Anyway, I made it known VERY plainly that I wanted her and desired her. I out and out propositioned her. Reminded her of my talents, etc.!! I was very confident and strong...but also light-hearted.

Of course, she refused but she didn't want to. I could tell. She said it would be "detrimental." She said it would be like sleeping with a "cousin." She said that I'm fragile and that I would try to use it against her. She said more, those are the only things I can remember.

I responded that it would not be detrimental...it would be GOOD for both of us. We both obviously needed the release. I wasn't needy or begging...I was straight-forward. I kept trying to keep it light and fun. I didn't back away at her first re-buff. I kept my hand on her thigh...I moved it in an important direction...but she stopped me.

I told her that if she changed her mind during the night to wake me! I would be ready for her whenever!! I made it clear that I wanted HER!! Not my hand...not someone else, her! When she would say it was wrong...I would remind that we were still married and so it wasn't wrong.

THEN, this morning. I woke up even more in "need." So, I started cuddling her. Rubbing her thigh, pressing myself against her...the whole nine yards. I could feel her body begin to respond but then she pushed my hand away...but didn't pull away. I kept at it for about 20 minutes. She just whispered "Sorry, honey."

When I got up, I got undressed in front of her before going into the bathroom to shower...so she could SEE. That was a big deal for me...but it felt like the right thing to do. I reminded her that I am ready for her...and that what she saw and felt was for her.

Sorry this is so graphic. Just wanted to share. Now, nothing may come from this. But, if what you guys have been saying all along is true...she is at least having to think about me in that way again.

From the things she was saying, she was trying to make it about me and my feelings. But, it was pretty obvious that she is trying to avoid it so that it will be easier for HER to keep her door closed. I don't remember the specific comment that she tried to frame around my vulnerabilties but I asked her, "are you sure that's all you're concerned about?" She just moaned a little bit but didn't really respond. When she'd say she's sorry...I'd say, "Me too because you're missing out."

Needless to say, if you can't tell, I'm feeling pretty good this morning. And, I don't think it's because I made progress with her...it's because I took a stand and followed through. I don't know what it did to her...she could be completely cold and distant now. I don't care...I let her know that I am capable and willing to desire her and only her!!

Again, sorry so graphic and so long! Any feedback on what I could do better next time...this afternoon, tonight...LUNCH?

Thanks!
K