KEB, just hang in there. No matter how bad it feels, this pain will not kill you. Just stay with it. Don't bolt or distract yourself. THIS TIME for once and for all, go through the whole thing... Feel whatever comes up and let it pass. "How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time." Treat yourself tenderly and be patient. This will pass and I agree with GEL you will be a stronger and better person.